I have made a decision based on my training and I won't be competing in any SCY meets in 2009 including nationals.
I'll uate with my reasoning later and this may all change as I've had a few text msg's and emails talking me off the ledge. Yesterday in swim practice I just wanted to get ou and quit swimming for good. That won't happen but I just need to step bac and remind myself why started swimming in the first place. Which was fitness not competiting. I will expand later and this may change after a conversation with someone later today.
Okay so now I'm thinking that at the very lest I may swim at the Cal Tech meet since it's more of a fun meet. Considering I'll have to swim a 50 breaststroke it'll be at least funny to watch me flounder in the water. Oh and maybe UCLA as then I can eat cookies at Diddy Riese after. I'm already stepping back from my tapas and gin & tonics from last nights dinner.
On another note I fixed some comment issues that I've been having. Sorry that some of the comments over the last week never got approved. I turned off moderating comments again. I'll just go back to deleting the spam and the freakish comments one by one.